She took several rapid steps toward me before halting herself. It wasn't
because she thought I might smash Molly's window. Her movement was
instinctive, and proof of her compassion. She wished to end the torment
she glimpsed and moved to act upon that intent.
But she halted, in care of me.
Because she knew me who had done so much to reveal nothing to her.
Hint, yes at times when the boundaries were not only reached but
chafed and scoured me raw, then in desperation I might have hinted
with vivid and elusive images prone to multiple interpretations; they
were my chameleon coat, but giving nothing clearly, firmly.
"It's not nothing."
My jaws locked. My eyes locked onto one knobby branch fervently as
though it could define my course. All of me stood locked in
unsustainable tension.
Adonie took another step.
"Tell me."
Her voice touched me then like a
gentle stroke of fingers down my spine.
I could whirl on her and end it or begin.
I didn't know which it would be.
I didn't know which I desired or if I sought only a change, or an ending.
Something. Please something.